i am struggling with motivation and finding a purpose in life. the prospects of finding a career terrify me. i have spent so long inside doing nothing that even a single task i have to do daily seems impossible. there are days in which i do nothing that deviates from the usual routine. i wish to create art, music, learn, read—however i simply sit in the same place i sit every day and consume meaningless content that i forget immediately.
all my dreams take place in some fantasy world in which i gain an incredible amount of discipline and break out of the digital dopamine loop i am addicted to.